On the Road

I don’t know where this road will lead me, but I know that Your grace will be the light that guides my path. Awaken my heart, Lord, to Your Kingdom plans.

I am writing this post from a bus, as we head toward Cincinnati, Ohio. Last night I landed safely in Lansing, Michigan. Due to supernatural God-opportunities, I am on a brand new adventure with a team of wonderful people I met for the first time yesterday.

Friday was my last day at my full time job. I have closed that chapter and I am officially freelancing. God said it was time, and there is no other way to describe His confirmations other than supernatural.

So, now I am on a bus, heading over to Cincinnati, Ohio. Never in my wildest imagination would I have thought I’d be here a week ago.

I know, I know . . . I am being extremely vague. Few people know exactly what I am doing, but then again do I even know?

The gist of it is that I have an out-of-the-box job/ministry opportunity this month. I’m traveling in a shuttle bus converted into a tour bus, with a band that impacted me greatly when I was 18 years old.

Only God can open doors like this, and He did it when I became fully surrendered to walking straight into the unknown.

This road is far from easy, but my God is faithful. He is definitely keeping me on my toes.

Which Risk Should I Take?

I am standing at a crossroad very similar to one I stood at a couple years ago.  In less than a few weeks, I will be leaving my  current full time job and continuing on with my journey elsewhere.

My decision to resign was not simple.  My position includes my home, which meant I would need to find a new place to live.  It  meant I would not have a steady income and that I would need to find a new job.  I have also been on the cusp of burning out and it was almost too exhausting to even consider stopping and changing my life path right now.

That said, I realized that my health was on the line and I needed to take care of myself.  So, I gave my notice and felt completely at peace.  In that moment, it was as if a large burden fell off my back.  There was hope.

This place of employment was a stepping stone.  I found healing here.  I found people who I am proud to say have become part of my family.  I thank God for this season, but I also know that it is time for the next season to begin.

The peace I felt is still with me and so is a new excitement.  Thankfully, Chad [my dog] and I have a place to live during this transition, but I don’t know a lot beyond that.  I stand at this crossroad, asking myself,

Which risk should I take?

Do I go down the path I already know, and fall back on what I know I can do?  I could do that.  I know I could do that and get a job quickly.  I have experience and already have a lead or two.  This would be a risk.  Maybe I’d have more money, that would probably be true, but do I want to take this risk just for the steady income?

I’m learning that I don’t need as much as I thought I did.  In fact, I was a lot more joyful when I had less and was able to do the things I’m passionate about.

I expect to be scoffed at by some for saying things like this.  I’ve had people look at me [in the past] like I’m being irresponsible for not saying yes to the first job that opens up.  After all, that’s what we have to do, right?  Here’s the deal . . .

I’m twenty-six years old.  Life is only going to get more complex at this point.  I figure, if I don’t jump now, will I ever have the courage?  I see this open window of opportunity and it’s terrifying, but I know I eventually need to jump and see where it leads me.

Anyone who ever wound up doing what they are passionate about had to take crazy [and sometimes unpopular] steps to get there.  I know that in order to see my dreams come to fruition, I am going to have to put myself out there and start walking it out with God today.

I don’t have time to start tomorrow because tomorrow is always going to be out of reach.  Regardless of how nonsensical and out of the box it may seem to other people . . . is this the risk I need to take?

Money has always stood between people and their dreams, but I know that God is much bigger than money and my dreams combined.  I know that my first job is to listen to Him and follow His direction.  I’ve seen Him provide in supernatural ways, when I’ve had a steady income and in the seasons where I’ve lived from one day to the next.

I think I’ve made up my mind.

Which risk should I take?

I’m going for the path I haven’t yet taken.  I’ll take the risk to do what I was created to do.  The risk to do what I am passionate about, even if it means I have to face the unknown in the process.  After all . . .

“We cannot become what we need to be by remaining what we are.”
― Max DePree

Your Present is Bright

It’s easy, isn’t it?  To get so caught up in what is not yet here.  To so quickly be willing to trade in the moment for the promise of what is to come.

It’s in our nature, in all reality, to seek out the greener pasture.  In those times when all hope seems to be lost, we reassure ourselves . . .

“Things will get better.”

That’s advice I’ve been quick to give in the past.  It’s a string of words that honestly have become empty of all power to me.

I don’t know that it will get better.  Perhaps the only thing that will make things get better is a change of heart and attitude, but I cannot even begin to assume anything beyond my own self.  Only God can see the heart.

One thing I’m learning on a personal level is that many of the disappointments in my life have been caused by my own expectations.  If my outlook is distorted, how would I be able to see anything as it truly is?

How would I even recognize what better is?

There is so much of an emphasis placed on things getting better and of the wonders waiting for us on the other side.

From experience, I know that I am never happy or content when I put my hope in tomorrow.  When I cope with my surroundings by telling myself that “if I can just make it through this” the new things coming are going to change everything.

As someone who, in the past, has coped by jumping from one new thing to the other.  New isn’t always better.

In fact, new will never give you the lasting satisfaction you are longing for.  It isn’t until we embrace the mundane, old and ordinary, that we will ever be satisfied.  It doesn’t matter how bleak our past or spectacular our future.  I’ll be bold and say that we will quite possibly miss the better when it arrives, unless a change within takes place.

It gets better today.

It gets better as we begin to allow God to change the way we think, the way we see, the way we live our lives.

It gets better when we give up on chasing our dreams and meet with God right here, right now.

It doesn’t mean life will be perfect.  You know that, I’m sure you do.  Things will not be perfect until we are at home with Him.  Terrible things happen every day.  I get that.  I understand it well.  You do too.  But . . .

I am learning that we don’t have to carry the weight of this world that we face.  I am learning that there is always light to be found.

Don’t give up, there is hope found in the now.

Look up.

Your present is bright

because His light

is all around you.

Interrupt My Day

 

Lord, as I go about my usual routine . . .
I invite You to interrupt my day
and change the way
I see the world.

 

 

Let me not be so consumed . . .
In the things I have to do
that I forget You
are beside me.

 

 

Lord, steady my heart in Yours . . .
Remind me of Your presence
and of heaven
that surrounds me.

 

 

Teach me to look for You.

New Video: Holy || Spoken Word – Stephanie Meier

A few days before I left for Iceland in September, I was inspired to create this piece.  Though I did not have all of the words, I felt very certain that I would film during my travels.

On the night of the blood moon, after I watched the eclipse from my room where I was staying, I started putting words down on paper, and I began to hear the notes that would eventually become the soundtrack to Holy.

To view the video in high definition, change the quality to HD in the video player settings, or view it on Vimeo.

“Fearless” and Some Other New Developments

It started with a couple sentences back in April.

On Thursday morning I woke up inspired with the rest,

and it became . . .

Fearless.

My original plan for Thursday was to stay in bed and sleep as long as possible.  I work at a year-round Christian camp, and we are currently in our busiest season.  So I am pretty much daydreaming about the next time I get to sleep.

Every single day.

But that changed when I woke up and instantly began to write down sentence after sentence.  I hadn’t even had my first cup of coffee before I latched onto the insane notion that I would then compose and record an audio track, film a video, edit it all together, and then release it on Saturday.  Mind you, I had to work Friday and part of Saturday.  It was slightly ridiculous.

Thankfully, I live for ridiculous.

Why did it have to be released on Saturday? Honestly, I could have released it a month from now, but I did it for myself.  Simply because I needed to.

Saturday was the day of my almost-wedding.  To those who have been quietly wondering since April, the wedding was called off.  I had my reasons.  Thank you, friends, for being supportive even without knowing all of the details.

To answer your next question, I am doing well.  Very well.  In the end, I am thankful that God is in control and that He is a good, protective Father.  And honestly, it has been around roughly seven years since I have met Single Stephanie.  I really like this for the moment.  After sorting through some things with the Lord for the past few months, I have emerged with some new standards, clearer perspective, a healthier view on my self-worth, and more peace than I have had in . . . . yes, seven years.

Besides working, I have been spending a majority of my time pursuing my passion for photography and furthering my experience in filmmaking.  I have big dreams regarding both and I am taking steps every day to experiment and challenge myself to go further.  If you are not yet friends with me on Facebook, I post a photo of the day on a regular basis.

I am also in the works of a new music project titled, Awakening.  Most of the songs were written while I was playing out in the streets of Portland.  It will be so different from anything I have ever released that I find myself slightly lightheaded at the thought.  I plan to write a few more songs to complete the album and I am determined to put out a promo video by the fall.

I cannot believe that we are already halfway through 2015.  So much has already happened, and there is still much more to come.  I am preparing to return to Iceland in September for another conference with His Glory to the Nations.  My heart has been longing to return ever since my first trip last year.  I am currently putting together a promo video for that as well.  [Yes, I have quite a few projects going on right now . . .]

That said, the projects won’t finish themselves.  😉  Be back soon . . .

Official Album Release

Happy New Year, friends!  I am absolutely thrilled out of my mind to finally present you with the music project I’ve been working on for the last couple months.  Well, more like the last month because I completely scratched what I had originally intended on recording . . . multiple track lists that I stuck back on the shelf for now.  But . . . here it is!  And this, was in fact, my New Year’s resolution for 2014.  Praise God.  What an adventure.

I’d be eternally grateful to anyone else who feels compelled to repost, tweet, or blog about this release.  Thank you all so much for the support you’ve shown me throughout this journey.  Enjoy!

You can purchase a digital copy here: http://www.cdbaby.com/cd/stephaniemeier

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