I wrote In Hindsight early this morning. I’ve had an interesting few days. Days filled with pondering decisions on opportunities that have been knocking at my door.
Last night, I sat in my car with tears streaming down my face and talked to my wonderful husband about music and my dreams that coincide with music. We talked about past opportunities, offers, big doors that had swung open to me in my late teens and early twenties.
We talked about how I felt it was very good I had turned down certain opportunities. How God had protected me so many times from walking down roads that would have left me empty and feeling compromised.
My twenty-eighth birthday is creeping around the corner, quickly, and I feel such a stillness in my heart about where I am and where God is leading me.
You see, I’ve had some opportunities open since the year began. Doors that could lead me to places I probably would have lost my mind over when I was younger.
It’s almost been like God has opened these doors to solidify what He has already told me.
Apart from Him, nothing else matters.
Life is temporal, so I’m living for the eternal.
I trust that He will show me the doors I need to walk through, and that He will shut the doors I need to pass by.
That’s why I had tears last night. Because I knew what He had promised was certain. I knew that if I honored Him with my music that He would honor my music.
I had tears because of that stillness. I knew for certain that opportunities will come, but I don’t need to step out in desperation.
Perhaps this will bring courage to someone else. That’s why I’m writing this.