Hello, Regret took me a couple years to write. It was a journey I had to walk through to finally finish the lyrics. Sometimes songs are like that. As I’ve grown in my songwriting, I’ve learned that some come quickly and others come after you’ve struggled through to the other side of them.
“To regret is much too high a price…”
I’ve made a lot of mistakes in life—I’m sure you have too. I’ve made the wrong choices, walked down the wrong paths, spoke when I should have kept quiet, kept quiet when I should have let my voice be heard.
We all have things in life we would do differently, if given a second chance.
It’s a part of life, but it doesn’t have to define the way you live the rest of your life.
I’ve lived with regret in two ways.
1.) I let regret overtake me and drown me in a never-ending sea of remorse.
A few years ago, I found myself in a very dark place. This was well after I had received healing from addictions and so forth (My Testimony). I had been living on my own in Oregon for a bit and I was burned out.
I had made choices that had put me in a place that brought difficult consequences and mental turmoil. The world felt dark and out of control.
My health was poor and I felt remorseful and angry at myself for the decisions I made in my teens. Those years when I didn’t take care of myself.
I lost sight of who I was.
Regret makes you forget who you are, if you let it take hold of your hope.
2.) I chose to forget and cover up my feelings.
There’s danger that follows this way of living. When you choose to forget, you open a door that may lead you to fall into the same mistakes of your past.
So, I had to find a balance.
Regret has become very important in my walk. A healthy amount. No longer living in a dark state of constant remorse, but choosing to learn from the mistakes so that I can grow and make better decisions as I go.
Covering up feelings is never a good idea. They eventually come out. The longer they are bottled up, the uglier the impending explosion.
As painful as it is, I’ve been trying to get into the habit of facing my fears as they come and letting the regret take its course immediately.
Again, the idea is not to stay in a state of remorse and allow the regret to take over. It is, however, vital to face the facts. Forgive others, forgive yourself. Don’t hold onto things that are only going to weigh you down. Let go. Give it up. Move forward.
Your regret, your past, does not define you. God defines you. He can make you new and whole again. He will guide you through lingering consequences and be there when you grieve and battle through to the other side.
Grief is healthy. Cry. Talk to someone. Pray.
Just don’t stay there.
Stop for a moment. Allow yourself to feel so you can move on.
“There’s a joy that I am running to. A love that makes a way.”
My new single and lyric video arrived today, and you can now stream/watch/download it to your heart’s content. Enjoy!