It was October of last year, I had just lead a session of worship at a Women’s Conference. As I left the piano and went to the back of the room to my seat, I was instantly hit with a thought.
I was going to write a spoken word about my battle with an eating disorder and addiction.
I felt the weight of the project hit me like a brick wall. I knew in that moment if I only ever pushed myself to finish one project . . . it needed to be this.
I began to jot down the first few phrases on my phone. They flowed so easily that I felt I had to stop and catch my breath.
I turned off my phone and waited. And perhaps, I dragged my feet a little.
I dragged my feet because I knew that this project had no room for cutting corners. It had no room for settling. It would require me to push myself into vulnerable places and stretch my creativity beyond what I was accustomed to. I also knew if it was going to be done right, I would need to find actors, as well as a special effects makeup artist.
A month or so later, I opened the same note on my phone and wrote the rest. And then, I put it away until I knew it was the right time.
I didn’t even think about it until last month, when I woke up on my day off and knew it was time. I got out of bed and recorded the spoken word narration in my Batman pj pants (just being real) and began to compose the score.
That week I started contacting those who would be acting out the scenes and poured myself into drawing out storyboards. I visited thrift stores for props and what I couldn’t find I would borrow or make myself.
Let me just tell you how amazing my family and friends are. I realized for the first shoot with a lovely young gal, I hadn’t even really told her what I was working on, yet she and my husband were blindly following me to do things that probably looked extremely odd and random—no questions asked. They are the best.
Not cutting corners meant I wasn’t going to settle for anything less than what I saw in my head. And that was amazing. As I went into places I had never been before, God provided the means to make the vision manifest right before my eyes.
The entire experience was filled with growth, honest conversations and an even greater level of inner healing. I am grateful to each person involved in this project. Each one of you were vital in seeing this from start to finish.
I will be posting ENOUGH on Facebook, YouTube and my website tomorrow (8.8.17). If you are touched by the video, I ask that you share the link and pass it around. Every share counts. Even if it only touches one person . . . it will all have been worth the time, effort and expense of this endeavor.
Thank you all for your continued love and support. Check back tomorrow for the link!