I am standing at a crossroad very similar to one I stood at a couple years ago. In less than a few weeks, I will be leaving my current full time job and continuing on with my journey elsewhere.
My decision to resign was not simple. My position includes my home, which meant I would need to find a new place to live. It meant I would not have a steady income and that I would need to find a new job. I have also been on the cusp of burning out and it was almost too exhausting to even consider stopping and changing my life path right now.
That said, I realized that my health was on the line and I needed to take care of myself. So, I gave my notice and felt completely at peace. In that moment, it was as if a large burden fell off my back. There was hope.
This place of employment was a stepping stone. I found healing here. I found people who I am proud to say have become part of my family. I thank God for this season, but I also know that it is time for the next season to begin.
The peace I felt is still with me and so is a new excitement. Thankfully, Chad [my dog] and I have a place to live during this transition, but I don’t know a lot beyond that. I stand at this crossroad, asking myself,
Which risk should I take?
Do I go down the path I already know, and fall back on what I know I can do? I could do that. I know I could do that and get a job quickly. I have experience and already have a lead or two. This would be a risk. Maybe I’d have more money, that would probably be true, but do I want to take this risk just for the steady income?
I’m learning that I don’t need as much as I thought I did. In fact, I was a lot more joyful when I had less and was able to do the things I’m passionate about.
I expect to be scoffed at by some for saying things like this. I’ve had people look at me [in the past] like I’m being irresponsible for not saying yes to the first job that opens up. After all, that’s what we have to do, right? Here’s the deal . . .
I’m twenty-six years old. Life is only going to get more complex at this point. I figure, if I don’t jump now, will I ever have the courage? I see this open window of opportunity and it’s terrifying, but I know I eventually need to jump and see where it leads me.
Anyone who ever wound up doing what they are passionate about had to take crazy [and sometimes unpopular] steps to get there. I know that in order to see my dreams come to fruition, I am going to have to put myself out there and start walking it out with God today.
I don’t have time to start tomorrow because tomorrow is always going to be out of reach. Regardless of how nonsensical and out of the box it may seem to other people . . . is this the risk I need to take?
Money has always stood between people and their dreams, but I know that God is much bigger than money and my dreams combined. I know that my first job is to listen to Him and follow His direction. I’ve seen Him provide in supernatural ways, when I’ve had a steady income and in the seasons where I’ve lived from one day to the next.
I think I’ve made up my mind.
Which risk should I take?
I’m going for the path I haven’t yet taken. I’ll take the risk to do what I was created to do. The risk to do what I am passionate about, even if it means I have to face the unknown in the process. After all . . .
“We cannot become what we need to be by remaining what we are.”
― Max DePree