When I lean on my own understanding, I open a door for fear, and his many friends, to enter in. There is no room left for trust.
Trusting in God is a daily—moment by moment—decision. My hope is that as I continue to grow in the Lord, the lapses where I find myself leaning on my own understanding will become less and less. That I will be more inclined to wait for His leading, rather than rely on my own intuition, my current emotional state, my ever-changing feelings, and everything else apart from Him.
The biggest liars that we will ever encounter in our lives will most likely be our own feelings. Quite a few of the biggest decisions in my past were made based on how I was feeling at the time.
I would say no based off of fear or hurt.
I would say yes to avoid letting someone down, or simply because it seemed like the right thing to do.
I was trusting in myself.
I’ve learned that just because something looks good—or looks GOD—doesn’t mean it is actually from God. I’ve learned that if I had waited a moment, and asked for His input, before taking another step, I could have easily spared myself from many painful consequences.
Timing is also important. We need to stay on His timeline. There are moments when we jump so quickly, and prematurely, that we end up missing out on what He was trying to speak to us in the first place.
When you can’t take a decision and hand it fully over to God, saying, “Lord, if this is not of You, please close the door. No matter how much I may want this, I give even my desires to you”, that is usually a sign that you are not truly surrendered.
As I look back and think upon the poorly made decisions of my past, I see a common denominator:
I would let God know what I wanted, leaving very little room for Him to tell me no, and pray that it would all work together for good.
We are human.
We are far from all-knowing.
We see things at ground level, whereas He has a much higher perspective.
His ways are so unlike the ways of the world that we live in, yet still He is always willing to meet us right where we are at.
He is closer than a breath away. Closer than our own skin. He is here to cover our weakness in strength and to give us the courage to live the life we were created to live.
All we have to do is reach out and respond to His ever present invitation.
Lord, give me eyes to see things from Your perspective. I don’t want to go against the flow of Your Spirit. I don’t want to move unless I am being moved by You.
If there is anything that is hindering my ability to fully trust in You, I ask that You would shine truth in those areas and give me courage to completely surrender it all to You. Increase my awareness of Your plans and purposes.
I ask for Kingdom vision.
Lord, take me higher.